If I Only Could...

It doesn't hurt me.
You wanna feel how it feels?
You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
You wanna hear about the deal I'm making?
You be running up that hill
You and me be running up that hill

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could, oh...

You don't want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.
There is thunder in our hearts, baby.
So much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?

(...)

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
With no problems...

- "Running Up That Hill" - Placebo

Hey guys! One of my quickly drawn pics again.... Eventhough this song is really old, I listened to it for the 10.000 time today and decided that it was time, to draw some Warriors-fanart to this. And this is what came to my mind first:
Since I finnished "The Sight" some weeks ago, this scene burnt itself into my brain. I'm not sure if I get the song right, but I think it really fits Jaykit/-paw was like "Why did StarClan do this to me?" all the time... I think if he could he would have made a deal with StarClan, so he wouldn't be blind anymore.
I think this was one of the rare scenes where I really felt sorry for him (I didn't like him most of the time because he was as grumpy and touchy as Crowfeather was in the second series -,-) and especially for Leafpool. She had to sit there and watch how her own son suffered and she couldn't do anything to help him. This must be the worst feeling a mother can have. But she wasn't even allowed to tell him, that she cared so much... this would've made everything even worse for both of them.
Jaykit's statement, that he wished he had never been born broke Leafpool's heart, I guess Since she's responsible for his birth and everything he had to go through. But it was for the best of reasons... And that's why I don't like Jaykit... I know he's unaware of what he's doing to Leafpool with his behavior, but still. :/ Dunno what you think about him, but sometimes I wish he wouldn't act so upset about his whole life.

I hope you like this pic^^ As I already said, it was a quickly drawn one and I gave a damn about details XD
The next upload will be a new comic page^^ But it'll take some time... because I have to learn for uni and so on^^

Characters and Story (c) Erin Hunter
Illutration (c) by ...ME! :3