Even The Devil's Been An Angel...

I want him to meet his maker
I used to be a lover, now I’m a hater
My passion to succeed is watching him bleed
Oh lord, what have become of me?

(...)

The evil within has never been greater
My soul has been seized and he’s the dictator
I’ve been dragged through the mud
I can still taste the blood
Oh lord, what have become of me?

(...)

The devil’s been an angel
Even the devil’s been an angel
Lucifer

- "Lucifer" by XOV

Wohooooo Finally uploaded this little piece of... imagination. xD I'm really sorry I'm not uploading all my stuff at the moment. As most of you know my boyfriend left me and I had to sort out a lot of things. Like... a LOT of things. xD But I'm feeling much better now. The only problem is, that I'm stuck with a lot of work for school (you know, here in Germany trainees still visit school for one or two days a week. Just to make sure xD) and at my workplace. I feel very guilty for this, but when I got some free time I use it to chill or hang out with friends... or just sleep. x_x' So I kinda neglect all the drawings I started.... I'm sorry :< Please forgive me.

Anyways... To this picture: This is Tigerstar and Brindleface. This is - as far as I know - NOT a scene from the books. It's rather a behind-the-scenes-picture... or it's a scene from Tigerstar's Fury. I didn't read that one, yet.^^ I just heard of a scene from this book where he watches ThunderClan escape from the fire that destroyed their camp and where he watched out for Goldenflower and his kits to make it out alive. This was so contrasting to his otherwise brutal and vengeful behaviour... I couldn't believe it at first.
And that's what made me think of this scene. It was never mentioned how he killed Brindleface in 'A Dangerous Path', so the quote I used is fictional. But there must've been some kind of breaking point for him. Tigerstar wasn't always an evil murderer - he had Goldenflower as his mate, he had kits with her and everything. So there must've been some kind of good side to him. Some kind of love, that died with every 'failed' effort to get more power.
The process of him becoming the vilian was a long one. He lied, he betrayed and he killed to get what he thought was rightfully his. But all his hate and his destructive amibition were in vain and it made him furious - mad even (I really do believe he lost his mind somewhere along the way). It started to eat at him, so he had to blame someone for his failing. Firestar (at that time Fireheart) got everything he ever wanted, despite him being a kittypet.
I believe that when Tigerstar killed Brindleface to give the dog pack a taste of cat-blood, he had already developed some kind of obsession with Fireheart (one of the many reasons, why he tried to kill Firestar and take over his clan, even after his own death). This obsession wouldn't allow him any rest, not even in his afterlife and that's what made him finally 'evil', what made an angel become the devil itself.

I hope you liked my little interpretation of Tigerstar I never really thought about why he did what he did, until I started working on this little piece here.

The next uploads will be -FINALLY- one or two new pages from my fancomic!! Hope you guys are still following it.
Have a nice evening!

Characters and story (c) Erin Hunter
Illustration (c) by ... ME! :3